Day 15 A Song That Describes Me

DAY 15

(whoooo are yhooo)

So a song that describes me.. This is honestly challenging when i was more emotional I would know what song described me. Then it was "The Con" by Tegan and  Sarah,  but now... hmm I just took a random online quiz thing it was silly but its answer for me was....

CALIFORNIA KING BED

REASONING

1. Because the Quiz said I was Sweet and Romantic.... (it was 5 questions long lol)

2. I really do like this song so I'll just go with it, I couldn't name a song that encompasses my complexities.

DAY14

(people are labyrinths)

So today is a song that I like that people wouldn't expect. Well once people hear it I think its not that surprising but the artist probably is. So I picked....

OZZY OSBORNE: DREAMER

REASONING

1.It has good meaning, a better world.

2.I never would have listen to Ozzy if ,my cousin Devin didn't make a CD and put him on there... there are actually a few songs from that CD that would probably surprise ppl.

DAY 13

(don't judge my love)

A Song that is a Guilty pleasure. I learned at like 10 that it was dumb to feel embarrassed about the music I like. I remember I was playing spoons with a bunch of girls that i grew up with and they were all making fun of Britany Spears and I pretended for about 10 minutes that I agreed with them and felt like a loser for disagreeing with them. Then I decided I was gonna like what I liked and told them that I actually really liked Britany. I don't feel that way so much anymore, I kind of out grew her, but hmm something that ppl don't like now that I LOVE is...

JUSTIN BEIBER: BABY

REASONING
1. He's got a really good voice, and talent not just for a kid. I don't get why people hate on talented people especially young ones. Not cool haters.
2. The song is super catchy and makes me smile and think of driving to church with Suzy. :D

DAY 11

(por favor)

So I dont really have a favorite band or artist I really just like music but There are a few bands that I listen to on repeat so I'll pick one that I'm feeling at the moment.

THE WEEPIES; SIMPLE LIFE

REASONING

1.I love The Weepies, they have a whimsically down to earth sound.

2. The lyrics really display how I feel 

"Can I get up in the morning

Put the kettle on

Make us some coffee, say "hey" to the sun...

Is enough to write a song and sing it to the birds?

They hear just a tune

Not understand my love for words

But you would hear me and know...

I want only this 

I want to live a simple Life."

DAY TEN

(you are my lullaby)

A song that make me sleep... i have a hard time falling asleep to anything really probably something without words.

EXPLOSIONS IN THE SKY; YOUR HAND IN MINE

REASONING

1. Its peaceful

2. If I'm not sleepy it can push so much emotion through me that when its done I am sleepy

3. It sounds like Love

DAY NINE

(making me move)

A song I can dance to, well theres one that leah and I had a period of dancing in her kitchen too, well there are several really but hmmm I'll go with....

GYM CLASS HEROS; COOKIE JAR

REASONING

1. I Love this song

2. It has a good Beat

3. Travis was Hot before he got called Travy

DAY EIGHT

(you're in my memory... for better or worse)

Most of the songs that I know all the words to are from the 90's at the moment I can't think of a song other then one by a certain boy band.

N'SYNC; IT'S GONNA BE ME

REASONING

1. I was a HUGE N'SYNC fan.

2. I used to listen to this song on repeat for hours

(so much i'm sure my brother even remembers the words)

DAY SEVEN

(once upon a time this song played and in my heart there it stays)

A song that reminds me of an event, what counts as an event...? If event means time in my life that felt eventful, I'm gonna go with being in Love for the first time and When it ended. That was eventful and this is the music that plays to it.

ADELE; COLD SHOULDER

REASONING

1. It goes along so much with the way I felt

2. This is off of the album that was my Christmas gift, from that person. 

(he broke up with me after he gave it to me)

DAY SIX

(where ever you go there you are and this song plays on)

So a song that makes me think of a place, somewhere at sometime... hmm

Aww here we go this is a cute memory, its from when I was a freshman in Highschool .

JESSICA SIMPSON;  TAKE MY BREATH AWAY

REASONING

1. Shadi (<3 that kid)

2. High school Memories are fun

3. It was the first time I ever slow danced with a boy.

DAY FIVE

(it comes on and you come to mind)

This song makes me think of 2 people and has thus far been the easiest song to choose. It makes me happy too so I guess I could have picked it earlier but then I wouldn't have it now.

CALI SWAG DISTRICT; TEACH ME HOW TO DOUGIE

REASONING

1.  Makes Me Think of Leah

(Lets Run Into The Hallway and Dougie)

2. Makes Me Think of Jeff 

Because He Taught Me How To Dougie

Taught Me Taught Me How To Dougie

DAY FOUR

(tear jerker)

A song that makes me sad,hmm... there are songs that have made me very sad in the past. And a song that always makes me remember being sad and makes me a little sad is,

TRAPT; READY WHEN YOU ARE

REASONING

1. It Reminds Me of a Time in My life

When I was Very Sad.

2. It Told the Heart of Someone I Cared about

But Hurt Very Badly. 

That Will Always Make Me Sad.

DAY THREE

(you make me happy)

I'm sure there are lots of songs that make me happy, but being put on the spot to think of one makes it more of a challenge... which this is. So I'll go with....

VAN MORRISON; BROWN EYED GIRL

REASONING

1. My Uncles, It Reminds Me

of Them Singing To me.

2. Van Morrison is Awesome.

DAY TWO

(Not On the radar of Favorites)

Also difficult if I dislike music I turn it off and make no effort to keep it with me. But this is a song my friends and people who know the story of this song understand my dislike of it

PITBULL; I KNOW YOU WANT ME

REASONING

1. Bad Memories 

2. Makes Me Gag a Little

3. Its RIDICULOUS

day one

DAY ONE

(Favorite)

This is difficult I'm not a favorites kinda person I guess I'll just go with the song I'm enjoying  a lot at the moment.

HARLEM SHAKES; STRICTLY GAME

REASONING

1. Great Drive Tune

2. Makes Me Want To Dance

3. Love The Lyrics

"I'm sick of these sheep

I'm sick of thou shepherd

Sick of  dressing like a Human 

I'm feeling like a leopard."

&

"If life gives you lemons 

then thus God bade.

So put a little bit of bitter

in your pink lemonade."

A Long Look @ my speckled thumb nails (PastPost Almost)

Alright so I'm in the car with my Dad and my cousin Tori, we're driving to IL for my aunts funeral. I admit I'm not terribly excited to get there... I don't know that I'm ready to face the reality of it all but i guess these things get into your face wether you want them there or not.
also interesting at least to me im typing this out on my cell phone which isnt the easiest thing how do ppl text as much as ppl do my hands are cramping dang.
anyways the music is loud, I can't think of who it is but it says " the crulest lie are told with out a word, often truths are spoke but never heard." i think im gonna nap now 18 miles to Indiana.

30 Day Song Challenge Intro.

DAY 1; your favorite song
DAY 2; your least favorite song
DAY 3; a song that makes you happy
DAY 4; a song that makes you sad
DAY 5; a song that reminds you of someone
DAY 6; a song that reminds you of somewhere
DAY 7; a song that reminds you of a certain event
DAY 8; a song that you know all the words to
DAY 9; a song that you can dance to
DAY 10; a song that makes you fall asleep
DAY 11; a song from your favorite band
DAY 12; a song from a band you don't like
DAY 13; a song that is a guilty pleasure
DAY 14; a song that no one would you expect you love
DAY 15; a song that describes you
DAY 16; a song that you used to love but now you don't
DAY 17; a song that you hear often on the radio
DAY 18; a song that you wish you heard on the radio
DAY 19; a song from your favorite album
DAY 20; a song that you listen to when you're angry
DAY 21; a song that you listen to when you're happy
DAY 22; a song that you listen to when you're sad
DAY 23; a song that you want to play at your wedding
DAY 24; a song that you want to play at your funeral
DAY 25; a song that makes you laugh
DAY 26; a song that you can play on an instrument
DAY 27; a song that you that you wish you could play
DAY 28; a song that makes you feel guilty
DAY 29; a song from your childhood
DAY 30; your favorite song at this time last year

I will Follow You Into the dark.

"You and me have seen everything to see 
From Bangkok to Calgary 
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down 
The time for sleep is now 
It's nothing to cry about 
Cause we'll hold each other soon"
- Death Cab for Cutie     


In this past week, I've lost parts of me that I held quite close. My Aunt Suzy, who has been like a 2nd mother to me in so many ways. She was the most positive, strong, giving, wonderful, person I've ever been blessed to know. She was my mothers mother in so many ways. And has given so much to every persons life she has touched. When I was little she used to give my cousin and I baths and then she'd cover us in lotion, put us in our pj's and put us to bed in Traces queen size bed (he was 2). I'll never forget the smell of her lotion, and how loved I felt. And as I've gotten older I have seen her less but, she still made me feel so loved. She made sure I got a chance to try new things and reassured me when I was questioning decisions I was making. She believed in me. I miss her so much. I cans till hear her voice and see her smile. I feel like the world is a little less without her presence. But its alright because shes up there dancing with ma Jesus. It breaks my heart though, not only did my Uncle and Cousin have to watch her suffer. My uncle lost his soul mate, and my cousin lost his mother on the night of his Senior Prom. Life is so unfair sometimes.






"I just need more time
So get off your low and let's dance like we used to
But there's a light in the distance

                                  Waiting for me, I will wait for you"
- White Lies

The "I aint got no habit." Nun

Sometimes I seriously contemplate the possibility that maybe I'm not supposed to be in a relationship ever... and I also think wow I dislike emotion. Its either distracting because its great or distracting because its stupid and painful . Last night I was saying I might just become a nun with out the habit. That i'll just raise a bunch of Dogs, and never get married because this emotions business is ridiculous. You shouldn't be able to have feelings other then brother sister ones for  a person who isn't who God has for you, it just makes everything feel gross. And chemistry whats that about.... Dumb.  

I'm sick of falling for the emotionally inept and not being able to fall for the guys who want to give me the world.... Which I know this information suggests I need to do some work on me. But this heart thing i have is starting to feel like its turning.  And rather then becomes  a rotten bitter person I'd like the feeling to just stop plaguing me ugh.  But on the other hand I'd really like to have children of my own someday, and  I've woken up from dreams where I'm married and have a child and its perfect not because theres not work involved  just because its like the work I was made for.  So I guess anything worth having is worth the work it takes to have it, and worth the patients it takes to get it too.  So I guess I'll hold off on being a nun for now.

The Other Blog

http://letterbug-kaitikates.blogspot.com/

Life is a Highway, and One long Road Trip

And Road trips need some awesome tunes to narrate  them. Currently my narration is stuck on repeat. I can't make new Mix cd's because my computer is in a comatose state. 

But those of you who can mix a mean life narrative, road trippin, end of boredom, Cd. I would love to hear some different songs repeating in my car :D

Letter Bug: My Heart and The Willow

Letter Bug: My Heart and The Willow
I like to go back and read my poems... especially ones  I've forgotten I've written . For a while my poems Blog Letter Bug was something I didn't want anyone too see except the people I showed it to. Its weird, I don't mind people reading my songs, which are poetry but I leave things out of them to make them flow and feel right. But my actual poems they make me feel emotionally naked my hearts not just on my sleeve then its there on my naked wrist for all to see. At least thats how it feels, I know no-one really knows what exactly I'm writing about most of the time. There's always that chance though that someone will be able to read into me and not just the poems I write its kind of scary but a quiet kind of thrilling too.

今日は私の誕生日です。------------> (Japanese for Today is my Birthday)

واحد وعشرين  
 (21 in Arabic)

Today I am 21.... I am now free to drink alcohol, be in bars and sit at the bar, and most importantly I am old enough to get into all shows. Meaning if I want to see a band I can :DI think there are more people excited about my turning the big 2 , 1,  then I am. I don't really care. Drinking isn't a big deal to me. If I wanted to drink before I could have its not like america's youth is all that sober. But I like being in control of my body, I enjoy having memories, and I like my moral compass when its pointing north lol.But I'm not against a glass of wine or a beer or two. I want champagne at my wedding :) But today, I'm going to go out with my friends to enjoy a nice cup of coffee and save the celebrating my legal ability to "drink" for another day... I have the rest of my life to see what all the fuss is about, I'm in no rush. Happy Birthday  to Me!!!

It's Not a Question of Faith, Just Wanting Answers.

This won't be too long of a message to the world wide web, but spending time with my family during the past 2 weeks has made me wonder something a bit...


Why is it that people doing evil things get to live and continue hurting others while people like my aunt who give from the heart, love, support and touch so many lives for the better have to suffer the painful reality of having Cancer?

I don't question if God loves her, and I don't need a person to answer my question. I know no person could explain to me the answers to this or any other question I have like this, to the depths that feel necessary. I know God is here sitting with me.He sees my pain and is crying with me. I know he's beside her in the ambulance right now holding her hand giving her strength to fight for everyday that's still hers. I have no doubts that his love is more massive for his creation then I can comprehend, and I know that his love covers even the evilest of the evil doers in this world. But when I get to heaven I wonder if he'll have me understand the justice in it all. Because right now I don't see it.

Thank God for Faith.

And for a Moment, It was Oz

Chi Town... I've been here since the 28th of February and its been a long trip. I mean I've only been here for... it'll be 2 weeks tomorrow. It feels like I've been gone forever, and I guess I'm pretty home sick. And its hard to be somewhere when theres so much hard family stuff going on, it's easier to pretend things are better than they are when you're not up close to it. I sort of feel like I've disconnected myself from the situations around me, I'm normally a very emotional person.

Its a bittersweet feeling, not being so emo (lol)  I miss the passion I can portrait in my art, and writing. But I like having composure in front of people. I'm not sure I can have them both, I know people can, but can I? I don't know?

It hasn't been a super eventful trip not the way other peoples trips here probably are. I didn't come to be entertained though. I've done a lot of shopping to entertain myself, too much shopping really. And not the kind I can't do at home... boredom and sadness combined = shopping problem for Kate. 200$ dollars nearly gone... not all of it on shopping, i gave some to my mom for things and some of the things were necessary. But thats 100$ a week... and I'm not even spending any on gas. (which is good because gas prices make me a lil sick).

But my brother came in from North Carolina on Friday. That was pretty exciting. And since my mom gets to see him even less she gets to see me, she's pretty into entertaining him. We(My mom, bother, cousin Trace, his friend Even, and I) went to the South side Chicago St.Patty's Day Parade yesterday morning. They Die the River green with some sort of super secret eco-friendly food coloring stuff, the city was pretty much decked in green, and for a moment I could have sworn I was in Oz. I could here in my head that song from Wicked "One short day in the Emerald City."  

It was a long day woke up from not really sleeping, around 6am and then we all got ready and went to the train station and rode the Metra into the city. There were so many people on the train that they announced that we would take a little longer to get there because there was a lot of weight on the train lol. Then we walked about 10-12 blocks to stand at Michigan Ave. and Jackson. It wasn't an amazing parade, I'd pick the Detroit Parade over it hands down. Detroit's is more down home and like a big family. That one was this morning I hope Aunt Sally will have corn beef left when I get home, ughhh its  SO GOOD! Can you tell I'm an Irish girl ;) Anyways we left it before it was done, it was cold. We got back to the train station and had to wait an hour for the next train. The Metra train station is a bit like a mall there are stores a food court... Anyways the reason thats exciting is because I went into their book store, and I was looking at their Bible section and...

I found a C.S. Lewis Bible. It looked really cool. It cost $35.00 though, I'm hoping for it as a Christmas gift this coming Christmas :)
Once we got back on the train I was in a horrible and sleepy mood I needed a NAP (Origin: 
before 900; Middle English nappen  (v.), nap  (noun), Old English hnappian  to sleep; cognate with Middle High German napfen), so when I got back to the house I hit the couch hard. I haven't slept that well in I don't know how long.
When I woke up we went to a bar in town for dinner, and then I came home showered and we watched Social Network  which was pretty good. I enjoyed it.

If I blog for all to see see see

I haven't 100% decided I want to participate in the Blogrimage but if I do this is where you'll  find me ...
I don't really know what I would do for 30 days?

I've thought maybe I would Post a Poem everyday for 30days
or Make something of some sort everyday (be it by way of painting or baking, making things out of clay etc.)
possibly do something that makes me uncomfortable everyday for 30days... ehh maybe not. lol

If you have any ideas post a comment follow along maybe if you peer pressure me I'll give in... or maybe I won't lol we shall see