30 Day Song Challenge Intro.

DAY 1; your favorite song
DAY 2; your least favorite song
DAY 3; a song that makes you happy
DAY 4; a song that makes you sad
DAY 5; a song that reminds you of someone
DAY 6; a song that reminds you of somewhere
DAY 7; a song that reminds you of a certain event
DAY 8; a song that you know all the words to
DAY 9; a song that you can dance to
DAY 10; a song that makes you fall asleep
DAY 11; a song from your favorite band
DAY 12; a song from a band you don't like
DAY 13; a song that is a guilty pleasure
DAY 14; a song that no one would you expect you love
DAY 15; a song that describes you
DAY 16; a song that you used to love but now you don't
DAY 17; a song that you hear often on the radio
DAY 18; a song that you wish you heard on the radio
DAY 19; a song from your favorite album
DAY 20; a song that you listen to when you're angry
DAY 21; a song that you listen to when you're happy
DAY 22; a song that you listen to when you're sad
DAY 23; a song that you want to play at your wedding
DAY 24; a song that you want to play at your funeral
DAY 25; a song that makes you laugh
DAY 26; a song that you can play on an instrument
DAY 27; a song that you that you wish you could play
DAY 28; a song that makes you feel guilty
DAY 29; a song from your childhood
DAY 30; your favorite song at this time last year

I will Follow You Into the dark.

"You and me have seen everything to see 
From Bangkok to Calgary 
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down 
The time for sleep is now 
It's nothing to cry about 
Cause we'll hold each other soon"
- Death Cab for Cutie     


In this past week, I've lost parts of me that I held quite close. My Aunt Suzy, who has been like a 2nd mother to me in so many ways. She was the most positive, strong, giving, wonderful, person I've ever been blessed to know. She was my mothers mother in so many ways. And has given so much to every persons life she has touched. When I was little she used to give my cousin and I baths and then she'd cover us in lotion, put us in our pj's and put us to bed in Traces queen size bed (he was 2). I'll never forget the smell of her lotion, and how loved I felt. And as I've gotten older I have seen her less but, she still made me feel so loved. She made sure I got a chance to try new things and reassured me when I was questioning decisions I was making. She believed in me. I miss her so much. I cans till hear her voice and see her smile. I feel like the world is a little less without her presence. But its alright because shes up there dancing with ma Jesus. It breaks my heart though, not only did my Uncle and Cousin have to watch her suffer. My uncle lost his soul mate, and my cousin lost his mother on the night of his Senior Prom. Life is so unfair sometimes.






"I just need more time
So get off your low and let's dance like we used to
But there's a light in the distance

                                  Waiting for me, I will wait for you"
- White Lies

The "I aint got no habit." Nun

Sometimes I seriously contemplate the possibility that maybe I'm not supposed to be in a relationship ever... and I also think wow I dislike emotion. Its either distracting because its great or distracting because its stupid and painful . Last night I was saying I might just become a nun with out the habit. That i'll just raise a bunch of Dogs, and never get married because this emotions business is ridiculous. You shouldn't be able to have feelings other then brother sister ones for  a person who isn't who God has for you, it just makes everything feel gross. And chemistry whats that about.... Dumb.  

I'm sick of falling for the emotionally inept and not being able to fall for the guys who want to give me the world.... Which I know this information suggests I need to do some work on me. But this heart thing i have is starting to feel like its turning.  And rather then becomes  a rotten bitter person I'd like the feeling to just stop plaguing me ugh.  But on the other hand I'd really like to have children of my own someday, and  I've woken up from dreams where I'm married and have a child and its perfect not because theres not work involved  just because its like the work I was made for.  So I guess anything worth having is worth the work it takes to have it, and worth the patients it takes to get it too.  So I guess I'll hold off on being a nun for now.

The Other Blog

http://letterbug-kaitikates.blogspot.com/

Life is a Highway, and One long Road Trip

And Road trips need some awesome tunes to narrate  them. Currently my narration is stuck on repeat. I can't make new Mix cd's because my computer is in a comatose state. 

But those of you who can mix a mean life narrative, road trippin, end of boredom, Cd. I would love to hear some different songs repeating in my car :D